Time does fly isn’t it? i don’t remember how suddenly 25 is soon to be just a history
I don’t remember what i exactly said to my so-called-big-brother-who-happened-to-be-born-at-the -exactly-same-date-but-different-year-with-me *rempong yaaaaa* in our birthday last year, but what i remember is i said to him that this year should be filled up with life celebration. No more complaining, with capital. And now since my 25 is almost done (if i’m still in europe, means the end of the discounted price for student under 26 season, glad that i’m in Indonesia now :p), let’s do some recap just to keep everything documented *as if i care with document or journal* *well i do care* *sometimes* *if else why did i start blogging anyway* *oh please brain, stop the monologue and be cooperate*. Pardon me people, it is just part of mid life crisis *what is mid life anyway??*
Okay, where should i start, my 25 was pretty awesome, i got my degree, i explored europe *a bit*, i learned a lot especially during my stay aboard *i mean that was a rare chance which hopefully i can regain someday* *doesn’t mean that i don’t like to live here, please believe me, if i have to choose Indonesia will be my number one*, i learned to grow, to accept the fact that to some extent i am adult and tried to act as adult should be, met new people, made friends, tried to think and see things from different points of view. Yeah, my life was full of celebration, i did keep my promise. to some extent. in other words. i didn’t really keep my promise all the time. well yeah. i’ve cheated.
i’ve cheated when i stopped writing because writing actually a form of celebration trough words
i’ve cheated when i stopped making pictures just for fun because photography is something that really fun and fun is identical with celebration
i’ve cheated when i stopped dreaming high. and it is a real severe. because people like me needs to dream all the time, dreams are our sedative, and now i kinda lost because i don’t know what i should dream *but i keep making unnecessary delusions which are plainly unnecessary*
i’ve cheated when i stopped having conversation with HIM whenever i needed tho i understand entirely that it is the purest form of life celebration.
And so, now i’m 26 *oh yeah people, now exactly 12 o’clock which mean i am officially 26* i’m thinking what should i do next?
i think it is an urge to start dreaming like i used to. and maybe this song will help me
happy birthday little girl, apparently one year is not enough for you to learn to be mature. so learn more, and never stop learning because when you stop that will be the end of your celebration.