Time does fly. Funny isn’t it? when you try to reminisce everything, try to list what you’ve already attained, and somehow you feel that you just not good enough. Well, people may have plan, the may set their target, construct strategy to achieve that target, and implement them sometimes. Some of them succeed but not a little that failed.
For me it never works that way. I gave up planning loong time ago, when i realized that it just doesn’t work for me. So instead of making plan, i build dreams. I arrange alternatives, i live where life bring me to. I try to give what’s best and leave the rest to HIM. Most of the time it works, tho’ not rarely it fails. But it’s apparently better than the first one. Still i feel that i’m just not good enough.
Living this kind of way of life brings some consequences to me, my life is always a chaos, either a chaotic order or an organized chaos, it just randomly occurs. Sometimes i think i need pattern, but as i said i’m not good in making plan and so do pattern. So i think, in the mean time, i’ll stick to my current way. Keep dreaming. Keep looking for alternatives. Keep making chaos. Until i find a way how to make myself become good enough for everyone. I don’t know when. Or maybe never. well people greedy and never feel satisfy right??
10 days left to a quarter of the century. And what you already give girl?
whatever. just dream up!
P.S lama ga nulis munculnya tulisan galau ga jelas begini. ya maap. maklum 20-something crisis, dikombo sama musim ujian lagi :p
jadi ke UK? 🙂
di belanda Gus 🙂 udah hampir 4 bulan….
lama g maen ke padeblogan, ternyata alamatnya pindah -__-
terus jg kok g bisa komen ya gus?
“a chaotic order or an organized chaos” I heard that somewhere =P
For me, the good thing about making plan is when the plan itself begin to crumble, at the moment failure rise to surface,\ if you change your perspective you’ll be able to learn something new, give it a try =D
maybe you read it in http://inspirational-conspiracy.blogspot.com/ just like me :p
yeaa…but i’m kinda sucks wit those sort of thing 😦
but doesn’t mean that i can’t learn 🙂